“no mud, no lotus”

Today, I am grateful for the tools that help me reflect on my past with respect, grace, compassion, and humor. 

I am learning how my obsession for another person fulfilled my sick abandonment needs, drove me, over powered me, led me to deny myself and ultimately to lose myself. 

I accomplished being gentle with myself, being honest about how this day was impacting my inner family, and allowing my loving parent to kindly take the wheel. 

I delighted in celebrating a big win with my lil sis and being the first person she shared the amazing news with, in filling my belly with fresh Dungeness crab Benedict, in awesome views of the ocean, in a good cry, in big hugs from my person, in coming home, and in a little movie therapy.